know　what　that　feels　like

〃Who　wants　to　be　a　nightmare；　a　monster？

〃And　then；　the　way　it　es　so　easily　to　me；　the　way　I'm　better　at　it　than　the

rest　of　them—does　that

make　me　even　less　human　than　Enbry　or　Sam？　Sometimes　I'm　afraid　that　I'm

losing　myself。〃

〃Is　it　hard？　To　find　yourself　again？〃

〃At　first；〃　he　said。　〃It　takes　some　practice　to　phase　back　and　forth。　But　it's

easier　tor　me。〃

〃Why？〃　I　wondered。

〃Because　Ephraim　Black　was　my　father's　grandfather；　and　Quil　Ateara　was　my

mother's　grandfather。〃

〃Quil？〃　I　asked　in　confusion。

〃His　great…grandfather；〃　Jacob　clarified。　〃The　Quil　you　know　is　my　second

cousin。〃

〃But　why　does　it　matter　who　your　great…grandfathers　are？〃

〃Because　Ephraim　and　Quil　were　in　the　last　pack。　Levi　Uley　was　the　third。　It's

in　my　blood　on　both　sides。

I　never　had　a　chance。　Like　Quil　doesn't　have　a　chance。〃

His　expression　was　bleak。

〃What's　the　very　best　part？〃　I　asked；　hoping　to　cheer　him　up。

〃The　best　part；〃　he　said；　suddenly　smiling　again；　〃is　the　speed。〃

〃Better　than　the　motorcycles？〃

He　nodded；　enthusiastic。　〃There's　no　parison。〃

〃How　fast　can　you　？〃

〃Run？〃　he　finished　my　question。　〃Fast　enough。　What　can　I　measure　it　by？　We

caught　what　was　his

name？　Laurent？　I　imagine　that　means　more　to　you　than　it　would　to　someone

else。〃

It　did　mean　something　to　me。　I　couldn't　imagine　that—the　wolves　running

faster　than　a　vampire。　When　the

Cullens　ran；　they　all　but　turned　invisible　with　speed。

〃So；　tell　me　something　I　don't　know；〃　he　said。　〃Something　about　vampires。　How

did　you　stand　it；　being

around　them？　Didn't　it　creep　you　ou