of his had been wont to say。 Consider the difference if they didn't go down; if
they could somehow stick it out。 The play would get finished。 One way or the
other; he would tack an ending onto it。 His own uncertainty about his characters
might add an appealing touch of ambiguity to his original ending。 Perhaps it
would even make him some money; it wasn't impossible。 Even lacking that; Al
might well convince the Stovington Board to rehire him。 He would be on pro of
course; maybe for as long as three years; but if he could stay sober and keep
writing; he might not have to stay at Stovington for three years。 Of course he
hadn't cared much for Stovington before; he had felt stifled; buried alive; but
that had been an immature reaction。 Furthermore; how much could a man enjoy
teaching when he went through his first three classes with a skull…busting
hangover every second or third day? It wouldn't be that way again。 He would be
able to handle his responsibilities much better。 He was sure of it。
Somewhere in the midst of that thought; things began to break up and he
drifted down into sleep。 His last thought followed him down like a sounding
bell:
It seemed that he might be able to find peace here。 At last。 If they would
only let him。
* * *
When he woke up he was standing in the bathroom of 217。
(been walking in my sleep again — why? — no radios to break up here)
The bathroom light was on; the room behind him in darkness。 The shower curtain
was drawn around the long claw…footed tub。 The bathmat beside it was wrinkled
and wet。
He began to feel afraid; but the very dreamlike quality of his fear told him